Guilt from missing my Sportive

So, following on from the last post, where I had three weeks of training left for my first goal of the year, I can proudly announce that my Gold classification at the Puncheur Sportive never happened.
My physical state was not where it should have been because of my frequent falling off of the wagon into the fields of gluttony and sloth, but I wasn't too bad. I could have done the ride and got near or maybe achieve my target time of 4 hours.
It's been a dry winter and I think we actually have a drought, or something official. Something has been announced by some body or other and there water restrictions in place. So with weeks of dry weather, when did it start raining (6am on the day of the ride) and when did it stop raining (2pm on the day of the ride). And it hasn't rained since.
Why didn't I do the ride? Well yes it's the rain. But I have ridden in heavy rain for 100 miles many times. In fact I did the Puncheur in sub-zero temperatures a few years back when the roads had sheets of ice over them and riders were falling like pins. So why this not time.
I think I'm getting soft.
I don't know why I do this riding thing anyway.

Yesterday I rode into London, to Crystal Palace. It was about 30 miles and I shot along and felt great afterwards. I still do. But it doesn't end there does it. I kind of wish that I have done my hard exercise now but this morning I have to think about where can I fit today's exercise/ride in. How hard should it be? (the answer is 'hard'). Should I skip today and do tomorrow.